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newclothingthingwithneek
seemschill
iwanna do it bad
hope it works

thoughts

iguess. its not about me and malea fighting.

today. i actually checked out xxxchurch.com
it was something that i needed.
ineed to straighten everything out.

mythoughts on cinergy. it really got me thinking
music=didnt feel anything.
first 2 vids= didnt feel anything.
3rd video=made everything worth while.
message= a lil too much all over the place. but i felt the message.

today got me thinking about realness/fakeness
how in someways im very much fake. with my lust. but quite a few people know about it. even girls.
i jus like. want to stop it somehow i think going to xxxchurch often will help.
but in a different way. im so real. i think i carry more real conversations that alot of people do . i hear alot about ..things. and i know how real the world is. i jus feel that people around me sometimes are fake .
and im tired of it.

if i live a fake life. im going to be a fake person.
thats not going to happen.

the only time i post...

is when im so fuckinggg mad at youuu.

FUCKKKK

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keeppushingmetotheedge
tillitstohardformetoholdon.

youbetterstop.
icanttakemuchmore.
ifeellike. imabouttofalloff.
dontworryillcatchmyself.
butitsonlysolongthaticanholdmyselfup.
yousayyoucanbethereforme.
butyoucant.yourtoounstableandyouknowit.