amazing because it is.

it.trulyis.amazing.

somedays. feel so down in the walk.
and lil things can change my walk in a 360degree turn.

itssoamazing. how easily i find God in music.
thankyouGod. forthegiftofmusic.
thankspat. chillin for dinner. it was good talking with you and lizzie and stevie.


the. end.

frustrationoverwhelms

it seems like my mom can always find a way to make everything shitty in my life.
to stress me out beyond belief to piss me off until ima about to blow.

and.

it seems like she's never there when i need her to.
maybe i need to spell things out.
BUT I HATE SPELLING THINGS OUT.
if you knew me how much i would expect you to.
you would be able to tell.
and yet. that wonderful Q i was looking for.
thank GOD you know me as much as i expect you to.

_____ monsters

newclothingthingwithneek
seemschill
iwanna do it bad
hope it works

thoughts

iguess. its not about me and malea fighting.

today. i actually checked out xxxchurch.com
it was something that i needed.
ineed to straighten everything out.

mythoughts on cinergy. it really got me thinking
music=didnt feel anything.
first 2 vids= didnt feel anything.
3rd video=made everything worth while.
message= a lil too much all over the place. but i felt the message.

today got me thinking about realness/fakeness
how in someways im very much fake. with my lust. but quite a few people know about it. even girls.
i jus like. want to stop it somehow i think going to xxxchurch often will help.
but in a different way. im so real. i think i carry more real conversations that alot of people do . i hear alot about ..things. and i know how real the world is. i jus feel that people around me sometimes are fake .
and im tired of it.

if i live a fake life. im going to be a fake person.
thats not going to happen.