projectWAKEUP

Don't make me say this twice
You know I'm right,
It's time to, its time to wake up
I can't stress this enough
You stare at me like I don't care,
I just don't want to fall asleep to another nightmare
To another nightmare
Whatever helps you sleep
I don't have any intentions
Of spinning you from this direction
So live on and don't ask any questions
You say that everything's okay,
But is everything really okay?
I don't think that everything's okay
You stare at me like I don't care
I just don't want to fall asleep to another nightmare
To another nightmare
No, the revolution is now

this whole week has been a few nightmares with one really good dream.
it all started on Sunday.
ever since Sunday to Wed. we fought ever night about porn. till probably about 4. so from about 12am-4am we would fight.
during the day. would be nothing but akwardness.
thursday rolls around and we finally got a chance to chill out which made everything better.
thenn friday came and we fought about it again. keeping me up till 1am. even though i had to get up at 5am.
so i get up at 5am to go fishing. got a haircut then game . whatever. super tired last night jus went to sleep early.
and today shes out with her friends
so amount of talking done. pretty much none.
i dont know.
i jus want things to be like thursday.
im really broken inside.
it kills me.
probably more than it does her.
i dont know.
i just need to stop.
sigh.
alright i guess im done.

postSECRET.

so ive felt the need to post my SECRET.
even though by posting it it makes it not so much a secret.
but because only a few people know about this then again it kind of is.

I'm Losing Her
because
I Can't Jacking Off to Porn.

theUNEXPECTED.

originally i was gunna stop listening to screamo/hXc music for a little bit. but that didnt last long. i stumbled across i see stars. and i like the sound. kinda like attack attack! but they have a different sound than aa! the screams differ which is pretty cool.

i dont know what to be blogging lately.
not much going onn.

HE IS RISEN.

THE UNEXPECTED HAPPENS.

:]

short term mission?

i think im going to go on a short term mission
i feel God calling me.
Thailand is looking pretty good.