finals day 1.

heres the run down of my grades before finals
spanish 94%
history 89..21%
physics B (already took the final. thats my final grade)
h. intro to calc 88.9 %
english 94%
social justice 89,96%

day 1: english
day2: spanish & h intro to calc
day3: history and social justice

so heres whats going on . its very key that i do well on my finals. if i do good. and raise all of the high B+ up to As i can get a 4.0 cuz of honors intro to calc.
the last time i got a 4.0 would probably be ... uhhh a long time ago. maybe like 7th grade.

today english i have to get a C to keep my A. so im a little nervous but im pretty sure i can do this. most of it is vocab which ive studied a lot. and matching the authors with their writing so here i go.

withOPENEYES

so for the past few days ive been wanting to write a little something .
kinda miss writing a little poem here and there a little bit so i decided to throw something out.
this poem to me is about how we thinking we are stuck in boring lifestyle with nothing to appreciate or to love. but when we stop we can see that there is so much around us that we take for granted and just look over. and then we are able to realize that there is more to life than living for ourselves. that there is a higher being out there. that God does exist. and then we can live our lives .living for more than ourselves. we can live for God.
i think that different times in our life our eyes become opened more and more. it isnt just a one time thing that happens. i think its reoccuring and that our eyes are slowing becoming opened more and more until God is pleased.
i have a 3 shirts that our a clothing company called with open eyes. that kind of touch on this idea.
so here it is.
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with open eyes.

we live with eyes locked.
we exist in the mundane.
a life of repetition, of monotony.
when we are able to break off from repetition
we can now appreciate the little things
the things that we overlook daily without contemplation
we are now competent of grasping a realization
that there is more to life than ourselves
then when we are able to unlock our eyes
and to live our lives with open eyes.

no blogging...

...= everything good.

YOUstareatMElikeIdontcare

so i wonder what it would be like. if i posted everytime i had to deal with bipolar bullshit.
or all the times i have to put up with malea bullshit.
there would be a lot of posts.

because she likes to fuckin push my buttons.
and she fuckin knows it.

whatever.
i just cant deal with it anymore today.
and then she turns around and blames shit on me.
haha. all i can do it laugh.
im pretty fuckin sick of putting up with her for today.
she is just too much.

i get no reconition for the shit i do for her.
ohwell.
life goes on.
who knows how long ima wait till i txt her.
cuz shes being a bitch.

edited. at 11:15PM
ive come to realization.
that i dont need you in my life.
but i love you.
and i want you in my life forever.
but we are young.