feeling.likecrap.

imsick.
and.
i am/not.
in the mood for venting.

im jus
sad/lonley/pissed.

second time feeling this. this week.
having a shitty week.

you have no idea how hard you are to deal with.
but

i love you

long night

so this is how it goes downn.
last night. malea gets really.
i dont know
its really hard to explain.
its surreal.
stayed up till 3.
no matter how hard it is to be with her.
i love her.
and that will never change.


so tireid today
said i was gunna nap.
but jus watched tv and shwered
i feel really good tho.

im walking closer to God.
started ready Ephesians.
i read like half a chap a night.
slow and out loud.
it seems to let things sink in deeper.
growing again.

neek showed me his sketch.
made me happy i love his art.
makes me think we can really do this.
excited
but patient

thankful for.

• friends.
  
• time to rest.
• random showers
• a wonderful girlfriend

• a MAGNIFICENT God.

im out.

thefogclears.

after a few days of a a huge mess of thoughts .
my mind has come to .. some sort of rest.
way better than a few days ago.

uhh
..
big problem. was guilt.
and shame
..
dont wanna tlak about it

hmm today ive realized that.
no matter how frickin big i mess up
HE LOVES ME.
imsolucky

THANKFUL FOR

• a phone.
• unlimited txting.
• my parents.
• my amazing malea.
• a FORGIVING GOD

Will I be left or forgotten?

soyea. ive still been thinking alot.
and maybe i think that im jus over thinking things.
and over exaggeratting.
i think i jus need to cool down.
and find my place with God.
because no matter what...
i know He is goinog to be there for me.

THANKFUL FOR.

• skinny jeans
• music
• a loving family
• a loving girlfriend
• a merciful God.