asIFeverythingwasHELDinPLACE

for nicko. im giving them a chance. and like i told him. if i listened to the cd then id probably get into them. and i feel myself getting into them.

today was an interesting dayyy.

jus having neighbors over to view the housee. was chill. and semi boring. cuz they are older but it was chill.
then i went to the youth worshipp night.
which was intensee. and veryy cool.
i felt really renewed tonight for somereason.
jus looking up at the lyrics feeling. free
i really LOVE
dancing around
jumping up and down.
and jus doing whatever for God.

HE gave me a sense of freedom tonight.

the LEAST i can do for HIM is give my all.

because i am so Blessed. :]


it really touched me today to hear jayce speak.
and i really want to talk to him more.
his story. and malea's storyy. seem so similar.

the only thing i could think of while he was talking
about forgiveness.
was UnderØath lyrics.

Good God! Can you still get us home?
How can we still get home?
I'm not dreaming
We're forgetting our forgiveness

God's LOVE
is so amazingg.
:]

I AM FORGIVEN

goodnight :]

transparency.// its just loving people.

Renee, Three Years. from To Write Love on Her Arms. on Vimeo.

to write love on her arms.
& malea.

have changed me in the past 2 yrs or a tad less. to the person i am now.
the more loving person that i am.

there are no words to describe.
howw much more changed i am because of twloha.


transparency. has helped me grow deeper in God by being more accoutable i guess towards others.
transparency. with others to me has helped me help others deal with their problems.

just loving people.
maybe very easy but hard at the same time.
loving someone requires forgetting the past.
and lookin the future.

and the past can be a very ugly thing.

i just hope that.
i can become more of a loving person as i get older

intent to write something deep....

...but was interupted. which leads to this blog.

today. & yesterday
ive been extraordinarly stressed. like no other before.
after all the frickin stress passes today.
around 8.
finished my hw.
smooth sailing
about to blog about twloha. and deep shizz.

malea calls me.
blah blah "i need help with math hw"
so whatever.
i have a slight clue how to do whatever she needs
so i figure out how to do it.
and she gets all frustrated cuz .. shes not gettingit.
then shes like oh i gotta go.

likee.
really?

can you
possibly
be THAT rudee. :[

girls.




whatever she ruined my peacefulness.
killed it
slaughtered it.
it was right here.
and then
SMASHEDD SUCKA!
take that RYAN!!
i really needed to be stressed out
frustrated
pissed off
again.

and a nice headachee!!
wooo!!

EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED!!!


bahaha ohh the sarcasm.

:]


im out

coraline.

probably one of the best movies ive seen in a long time. probably one of my fav movies noww. maybe even my favorite movie period.
the amount of work that went into making this movie. is.. unbelievable
but most of all the theme in the movie. is what i love.
the idea that world offers you superficial needs everything you want.
but its all fake. its meaningless.
there was so much to go along with this movie.
im going to have to go buy it.
it was amazing.
period.

thats all i wanted to say for noww :]