God..answers prayers.

ive been with malea for almost 14 months now.
and one thing ive always wanted for her.
and prayed for her is a relationship with God.

and so lately i def. think God is answering my prayers and others.
theres a small group thing in torrrance which shes only attented twice
but its hard for her to make it.

the 2nd time she tells me
that she had a really good time
and that she lead in prayer
that she felt she had to.
aka felt the Holy Spirit.

fast forward
the venice spring retreat is coming
so i offered her to come and if she like bring a friend.
well today she tells me that her mom is going to let her go
which is a huge step in a good direction
i really hope that her mom doesnt flake out on this and
that she can really go.

on sunday. when we did the prayer for her.
i dont know.
ive always had/have faith in God.
and
now i see that God really is listening
andGod really does care
and God does answer prayers

all i can say is.

THANK YOU GOD!

HELLorHIGHWATER..

...meaning going through a difficulty or obstacle.

today. definately a different day. a bad day. a scaryy day. a day leaving me filled with worry.

malea and her mom got into a fight and malea showed up at my house.

she stayed about 2 hrs until she could calm down a little and get away.

as she left. a feeling of brokeness came over me.

i cant help but worry as she is unable to contact me.

one thing that i know. forsure is that ...

..God will take care of her.
i trust HIM

and thats one thing i can never cease to do. just continue to trust God because HE has this planned out. i believe in HIM.


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yesterday and church they had the prayer leaders surround the church and the congregation go up and pray for someone who didnt know God.
and sitting next to noah. pats me on the leg " i know you have someone in mind". that just pulled the tears out of me i have no idea why. but i couldnt have the strenght to get up until he said that to me.
like the words set me free.
i went up and prayed w. the prayer leader.
and its only time .before she knows God.
because God is going to do what He is going to do.
i have to sit and be patient.
i cried so much.
overwhelmed by God.

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so i guess thats it.
i dunno why i did the top part how it is.
i felt like doing something different.

im out.

theSERPENTservant.

When every thing's gone, anything goes.

Theories without real foundation, blind folds entire nations, idols as big as your bank account is. No compromise.
Your gods resemble humanity, the irony is they are inferior and nonfunctional in their making. Are we here by chance?
That would make our circumstance absolutely worthless, flesh n blood without purpose.
Are you part of no bigger scheme?
Don't bother with self esteem, are we all but fading dreams.
The vastness of space, the delicacy of your face, the artistry of nature, all without a painter.
from sunrise to sunset are we part of this big accident?
When everything's gone, anything goes.

anything goes by impending doom

ive been trying to get into harder stuff. and impending doom. is where i want to be. i absolutely love their lyrics. and the music only stretches me into the Christian Death Metal genre. which is as hard as we can go. so hopefully i can get into them.





so anyway. i dont know went on this week.
me and malea fighting a lot.
too much.
just about everything imaginable.
and it has sucked really bad.
and this weekend i havnt seen her.
and the last time seeing her was friday morning.
im just worried about us.
i love her so much.
and ..
im scared.
but im trusting her
and God.

friday at six flags was fun.
with kim, jessica, and my new friend julia.
part of me feels bad
that i have a lot of friends that are girls.
i just dont want malea to worry
because
i love her more than anything

i dunno what to say.
im out.

30 hr famine.

for me the famine was really good.
when i arrived the anxiety of speaking started to kick in.
but i knew that i had to get up there and do it for God.
and it went pretty well.
mellisa got me thinking about how its personally affected me.
and i couldnt find the words to answer the question at the Q&A time.
but after some thinkingg i got it.
that seeing homeless people as humans we first think of judging
and looking down on them
but in the eyes of God we are ALL equal.
and that doing this ministry has helped me see
that im no better than anyone else.
and that i need to continously put myself in my place.

that night i always thought the worship was insane.
i really like to move to the music and give my all
because its worship
for God.

it was chill that night just to talk to people.
catch up w. peeps.

it was cool chillin with the guys before sleepin
jus messing around and bein dudes.

saturday.
i got up and i was so sleepyy
cuz we went to sleep at like after 3am aha.
oh well. and we got up a lil past 8

the community service was cool
talking with older people at the convelescant home
it was kinda depressing for me.
it isnt really my type of ministry.

hmm got back had to help out w. the chairs for the chapel
which took a long time but was accomplished.

hmm then we just chilled and then worshipp.
thenn we ate.
the food was decent.
i think i disliked it more than others.

but after that we headed to bens which was cool
to hang out w. the guys again.
jus chill and eat.
and the food was amazing
but i got so tireddd.

so like as soon as i got in the car it was a blurr.
haha
got home and knocked out for 3 hrs ish maybe longer.

then got online.
and had an interesting conversation with catherine.
about relationships.
and lasting through highschool.
i dunno
deep conversations like that
really get me.
i love them
no matter who the person is
i love it.

alright i really need to shower and get some rest.
im outt