so me and her are talking and its come up that she feels like i dont want to spend time with her. which is totally the wrong idea. its because i cant have a girlfriend. so i cant go out and chill with people that my parents dont know that often. and well. this spring break. i havnt had a opportunity to go out and spend time with her. and it sucks cuz its been a long time since ive seen her. and shes not feeling good about it. and neither am i . and now that were talking about it . im feeling like crap. and im seriously not too happy right now. im almost on the verge of crying. and well. it sucks big time
IT SUCKS BIG TIME
and well. i guess. im hurting her too . much. and itmakes me feel. like. if this is reallly worht it. if im giving her these swings. of her being so happy to be with em. and times like these when i cant spend time with her. and she hits her lows.
and i jus dont know what else to say. but. THIS SUCKS
well i dont want to talk about anything else.
maybe i should jus go to sleep. and hope it all goes away..
SLEEP.
DREAMS.
A SURREAL LIFE.
AN ESCAPE.
I JUST NEED TO ESCAPE!!
im off.