im not homesick. im just so sick of going home.

bring me the horizon.
they may not be Christian
and they may drop alot of f bombs.
but
the lyrics are real.
they are legit lyrics
its not a bunch of bullshit.
this is how life really fuckinn is.

so pretty much for a long time.
ive been pissed at my mom
and the anger never goes away.
everyday.
i find something new to dislike
how can i not even like my mom as a person
as character.
i hate it.
i really dont like her
i think a lot of it goes back
to when i was young
and she was never there for me
she was nonexistent in my life
now.
its catching back up to her.
now
that im older
i realize
your character.
your a hypocrite.

fought w. malea again.

you cant possibly understand why i stay with her.
or how i do it.
or what the frick is going on
how much strength it takes.
to put back your heart together.
to understand
that
you
malea.

its not your fault.

you have been stabbed in the back
way to many fucking times.

you are worth all my time.

"we're done with giving a fuck"

im sick of being judged.
im myself.

imout.