so i had an intense dream last night. and it felt so real that i remember it.
so the first thing i remember standing in a line. with my mom. and spencer and his parents and tyler and his parents. i get inside the place and all my family is there. like everyone i could ever imagine from my family. saying " He's alive" i walk through the crowd and find my grandma crying histerically and says to me "your grandpa is alive". and all i see is someone all bandaged up. so next thing i remember.
*warning weird scary part*
im in a house or something. and the flooring is gone on a part and im talking to someone but i dont remember who. and i fall with my feet down in the hole in the flooring and i kick something. and i see like rib cages. and i think that its my grandpa Sekiguchi and i apologize and run away fast.
next thing i remeber is being outside
im outside with malea and my mom. and were jus chillin. and i say to malea "i want you to meet someone" (because i know it would be weird to say that my grandpa that was dead) so i take her in. and i peek into the room and there are abuncha people in there and they tell me that he is sleeping. so i look to malea and say " we'll just wait a little bit" and then he wakes up. and before we walk i say to her "i want you to meet my grandpa". we walk in and. both my grandpas are there. and i go up to my grandpa Granucci first because he is closest to the door. they are sitting on a L shape couch. with my grandpa Granucci sittin on the part where the L meets. and my grandpa Sekiguchi on his left. so i walk up to my grandpa Granucci and say "i want you to meet someone". and i turn to malea behind me grab her hand and say "this is grandpa Granucci" and "grandpa this is malea" (i turn around and my grandpa Sekiguchi is walking away and i say wait grandpa you have to meet someone. so after introducing malea to my grandpa Granucci. i take her hand and introduce her to my grandpa Sekiguchi "grandpa this is malea" and "malea this is my grandpa Sekiguchi". i walk away from both of them talking and laughing with malea. i walk up to my cousin Claudia and say "I'm really happy they're back" and she replied "yea me too"
and then my dream ended.
so today i spent a good time of my day breaking down this dream. and maybe the significant meaning to it. because i believe that all dreams have meaning to them. and there is symbolism and what not. so heres what i came up with.
- simply i have no explanation for being in a line with spencer and tyler and their parents. and my mom.
- well when i walk in . seeing all my family. because we are a close family and that would be the only reason i could think of.
- seeing my grandma crying so much. because i know how much she misses him.
- for the weird part. the conclusion i came to. was that i think that i hurt him. i feel that way because i didnt see him for a few weeks and then he died. so it hurts me that i didnt see him before.
- the reason for malea to meet my grandpa because. in the dream i felt like my time was limited with them so i brought her as soon as possible. and because i feel like i need approval from them . for them to approve her. and that im missing that not having them here. because. her meeting them would be very important.
- when my grandpa Sekiguchi passed away. i felt a certain closeness with my cousin. and i guess the reason why she was in my dream because i know how much grandpa meant to her and me.
for some reason this dream really sat in with me.
i really wish malea could have met them and laughed with them.
because they are a part of me.
even though they may not be with us today.
thats it.
im out