summer 09 . a few thoughts on love. & vbs . haha. nice combination

hmm so i always have a hard time gathering all my thoughts into this blog. i mean my mind travels like 029348390 miles per hr. (lawlz i hit 0 for the first #)

lets do.. thoughts on love.
michael jackson passed away. and this morning i woke up and my mom was watching the memorial. and by the things that everything was saying that this man was a man of LOVE a man that used his music to change lives through LOVE. i few thoughts went back into my head about how when i was younger and he was accused of doing stuff w. little kids that i used to HATE on him and not LOVE on him. and now its hitting me that now i need to LOVE what this man was and to remember what he stood for and live my life how he choose to live his. he gave huge amounts of money to charities he changed lives. and you can tell that he did by the huge amounts of people that watched the memorial service on tv and the amout of people that even signed up for it. learned today that i can never have enough love. and i always need to strive for better.

thoughts on vbs.
hmm verry different for me to be doing worship and leading. i think leading kids is hard for me enough. but stepping out to do worship. i dont think its hit me that im standing infront of like .. 100+ kids. its pretty insane for me. im pretty happy that im doing it and its a lot of fun.
these last few days have been a huge improvement on my .. lets say falling relationship w. God.
made a new friend on the worship team lindsey.
learned interesting things taking to her on facebook aim or whatever yesterday.
learned that she used to go to venice but when her mom passed she had to start going to a catholic church because her dad is catholic.
she mentioned that everyone was really nice at church . and i think its giving her a second thought about religion.
i told her id take her around to meet people cuz i feel like .. i needa watch over her.

hmm so because my walk is getting better i think that im being spiritually attacked by satan. because i got sick today. after feeling closer to God after day one of vbs and talking w. lindsey that.. satan doesnt like how thiings are going. so todayy. after vbs. i check my phone and my friend emily from conneticut called listen to the voicemail. "ryan i need you . call me back as soon as you can." . i have known emily now for a year. i feel like God has called me to take of her. today i talked to her on the phone for 1hr when i got home. and what makes it all worth it is "thanks ryan you made me happy again". <-- that touched me like no other.

i think im done here. im outt.