shining.

the hope that lies in you by the glorious unseen. probably the best worship music hands down.
i really have two things to say.. but there is no way i cant put them in the same post.

i jus had to make a point. whenever i read this to remind myself.
that i am making a difference.
lindsey told me that she had to write about the person who has shown their faith to her the most.
she picked me.

Son of The Morning

frickin. oh, sleeper puts out the best music. best lyrics.. i dunno its jus so beautiful.
favs so far would have to be. the new breed.

Reclaiming thrones, our generation’s pride,
sits a conformist ploy to strip what burns inside.
Our bodies yearn to live life endlessly, so now we rise. We rise in mutiny.
We make our stand here between the angels and animals.
We fear nothing here, where we can beat any feat set to keep us crawling.
We’re calling you here to give leave to destruction of fear
and stand tall against all who will dare to shake you. Don’t let them shake you.
"Stand strong, where I could not, please stand strong"
Oh please, this plea, dear God, let it not from my lips be conceived.
So grip your fist and swing until your knuckles bleed.
If you are the new breed scream, "I am immortal!"
We can’t sit quietly because there’s more to life than we see.
So if you are the new breed scream, "I am Immortal in you!"
This is the call of the new breed.
I want to feel what change your glory brings.
Please teach me life lived fearlessly and I swear I’ll make a stand here,
between the angels and animals and fear nothing.
Here, where I can be more than mortal and fight for a kingdom that answers to no one.
But I just cant breathe without you in the air and I won’t so rip out these lungs...
and for my heart, you can cut it from my chest.
Oh God, if that’s what you want, for me to feel life endlessly...
I’ll breathe your blood for the rest of my life.
So grip your fist and swing until your knuckles bleed.
If you are the new breed scream, "I am immortal!"
We can’t sit quietly because there’s more to life than we see.
So if you are the new breed scream, "I am Immortal in you!"
We’ll be death’s dealers, if that’s where you lead.
Anchored by glory, we rise in mutiny.
We are the new breed. We are the new breed.
We’ve come alive and we are moving.

freaking love the song. love the bold more. maybe i can get . "the new breed" or "I am immortal in YOU" on my lip :].

attempt at deep thought.

hmm. God talk time C:
nothing like listening to The Glorious Unseen to get me in a spiritual mood. :]. they are truly amazing .

freakk. one of those times .. where i cant find the words.

i guess its really amazing when you make new friends... and you have them telling you "i can tell God is shining through u right now" (saved the text :])

the coolest God moment this week has go to be that i have been trying to open up to God more through prayer. and hearing Him and asking Him to work through me. so sunday night i was praying and i felt like God was telling me to tell lauren tang that He knows that she is going through a hard time but not to give up because she is doing His work. tonight i finally got the chance to catch her on facebook only had 5 mins. so i told her what i jus explained. and she said that she really needed to hear that right now and that it really helped. (im about to start crying) whenever i open myself up to God and i think i hear Him. its extremely hard for me to go to the person that He tells me to and deliver the message but i am learning that i need to have more faith.

another cool God moment would be talking to cristina gregoris. whom i havnt talked to in a year . we did some catching up on FB chat. and it was really amazing to hear how she went to India and how it was life changing for her. and we talked a lil bit about how her friends dont understand her and she knew that i would understand her. thats why she came to me to talk about it i guess. which leads to me to big thought of the night.

the secular world.

its been pretty weird going back to school because i dont like to hang with people from school that often because of our.... spiritual diffeerences and how they arnt the best people around. so summer was spent mostly around family and church friends. and its jus different being back at school. it was really interesting for me to talk to cristina because.. shes caught up in the party scene and everything.. but inside shes changing. it was really nice for me to connect with her.

tonight. watching trailers for the new movies coming.. maybe it was jus cause i was seeing R movie. but the movies coming out jus seem to be getting worse. its jus weird how ... movies can be put out like that and people pick it up. i dunno how to explain it . blankingg. so im done. :]

space.

earlier i posted how i was really thinking about giving malea another shot.
but like.
she has really been.... not giving me my myspace.
and for some reason that is making me rethink getting back together with her.
i dont know what to think.
i dont think i can handle much more.