yesterday . we talked .
and yet again. she started getting emotional and saying how she would do anything to keep us together and if there was anything she could do to tell her. i jus told her that i didnt think that she cared anymore. and that. she never seems happy to see me. and she was like "okay! i can fix that". and like today i pretty much see no difference what so ever. so i think. i want a break. but im going to give this more thought. but. i really think i want a break.
so instead of going straight home today. i was gunna go eat lunch with. spencer and kelly and spencers mom. so i invited malea and her mom.
and she came.but she didnt even talk to me and of course she tells lethicia to come... no offense. but uninvited guest. and whatever.
it was jus akward and not fun.
killed my idea for semi spending time with her.
ugh.
i jus. like.
dont really see a point anymore.
whatever it was that was keeping us so close before is gone.
and i keep staying in this relationiship hoping that i can find it again. which has happened in the past
but. i feel so distant now. that it doesnt seem like.. we can fix this.
like if we get a break.
then. maybe we can realize what we have been missing .
but im really unsure.
def. feeling unloved.
well i think im done with this now.