hmm yesterday was tuesday. hmmm. haha.
i dont even know. this week has been going by super fast which makes me happy cuzzz i wanna go to midwinter!
but it sucks that i dont get to spend vday with malea. cuz i really love her.
and it sucks not being w. yours lover on vday.
i couldnt be with her last year cuz my grandpa died.
and now i cant be with her again! :[ .
so i guess there is always next year.
sigh.
so there is like a crap load of people sick at school . im jus trying to last till at least friday.
or next friday cuz theres a partayyy next fridayy. :]
lalala.
i dunno mann.
im jus excited for friday.
sat. malea is spending the night w. one of her friends so ima give her friend part of my vdayy. gift so malea will get something on vdayy. hopefullly she isnt suspicious cuz i really want it to be a surprise. and like its the main part of my vday gifts. cuz its the DVD w. the mix CDs.
cuz on friday im giving her the gigantic stuffed animal :].
im looking forward to this weekend. cuz i dunno i jus feel like i need.
i guess it really is harder to hold together a relationship w. God with a non-christian gf.
but ive been doing it. jus not as much as i should.
to mention that the other day we had a long conversation about change w. her.
and shes still promising it to me.
so. im waiting it out.
hmm i dunno.
i dont have muchh to say i guess.
so heres some lyrics :].
Believe Me Once At Evenings Hush.I'll Rise Above.. These Chains Will Come Undone.
And I've Walked These Halls, and I've Fallen Through So Many Cracks.
And The Speed At Which I Fall.... By A String I Remain Attached.
And I Want More, Tonight Is Worth Fighting For.
These Shivers Won't Last Too Long.
Close Your Eyes, Take A Breath And Let Go.
It's Safe To Say That I Have Seen Better Days.
I've Been Walking Along The Same Path...
Claiming That I Need A Change.
I'm Not Sure.. I'm Not Sure If I'm Ready.
And The Ground Beneath My Feet Feels Safe.
The Countdown To.... My ESCAPE.